3 years and counting tears

i have  a lot of things to tell you since the day you left. its just i was so afraid to tell you the truth because i was not too strong like you, but you make everything so easy and simple and i don't have a special time to let it all out as i was busy collecting all the broken pieces. i know you loves me, but sometimes you never care about me. i tired to get your attention so many times. but you never realized and notice like i was there. i though you will remember my birthday. but i was totaly wrong. you forget my birthday it just like you forget all about me. what i can say you love and but you give hope to someone else. then you fall in love with somebody else like you starting to forget all about me.i know you get hurt by me. i'm sorry because i through the hard situations at the time. i'm sorry i never give you space to get in and be a part of my life. i was not ready to do that because all those problem give me headache. i tried solve the problem one by one. but sadly you not wait me and fall in love with somebody else. its really hurt me so much. when i knew that my heart broke into pieces. its all my fault. i give you hope and makes you waiting me till..

dear love, i thank you for once being a true lover, for the trust and for the taking cares of me. thank you for listening all my problem and cheer me when i sad and cry. actually you are a good listener. you teach me how to think postiveand never get mad easily eventho sometimes you get hurt. i feel sp secure whe  i was with you, you are a good protecter. i may not be who i am right now if you did not disappearand left me. i may not know how far i can go if did not leave me. i'd handled the pain for 12 month until i stumbled upon the pharase ' you don't find lve, love will find you'. Alhamdulillah, i had found myself once i tried to let you go.


since the day you are gone. the fact that the only worthy guy in my life left me just like that painful.
i have never regret the things we shared and the moment we had fun together. it makes me who i am today. i hope your effort by leaving me worth thousand times.